Sunday, May 16, 2010
Friday, December 4, 2009
I havn't 'blogged' in a while. It could be because I have started a diary, it's lovely.
Urmmm well, I feel really alone from my friends because I just don't feel like I fit in and I know that I wont see many people over the holidays because I'm so shy to ask them and also no one ever asks me. It's mainly my fault though. I hate being shy.
I went to the library today and saw one of my friends there and she is the only person I know that has a diary too! It made me feel like less of a loser because it's somewhere, where you are able to express yourself and then can read back on how you feel and your theories of things. I usually just put some scrap peices of writting in but I want to remember my experiences on life.
I don't know life is confusing at the moment, I don't feel like I'm in the right spot...
Urmmm well, I feel really alone from my friends because I just don't feel like I fit in and I know that I wont see many people over the holidays because I'm so shy to ask them and also no one ever asks me. It's mainly my fault though. I hate being shy.
I went to the library today and saw one of my friends there and she is the only person I know that has a diary too! It made me feel like less of a loser because it's somewhere, where you are able to express yourself and then can read back on how you feel and your theories of things. I usually just put some scrap peices of writting in but I want to remember my experiences on life.
I don't know life is confusing at the moment, I don't feel like I'm in the right spot...
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Friday, October 16, 2009
Goals
I finally set out dailey goals for myself. I thought to go to the hair dressers and I did, after a year. Then I willingly caught a bus by myself, which is a once in a blue moon thing.
Doing those things makes me feel more independent. I'm sick of having to rely on my mum for everything and it makes me feel bad.
Also in the past couple of days, I had my formal. Every one looked so handsome and pretty. Felt like a ghost against all the tans : The DJ was sixty and had Crocodile Dundee accent. The school spent a good $4 on that guy. I spent most of my night permanently damaging my feet and waiting in the line for photos, then when I finally got them the photographer made me do weird poses. Oh god, they're going to send them to my house!
Then the after party, I was happily getting a lift to Stephs house with Josh - Nawww his mum is lovely! When I got there got changed into stephs Eminem top : and some TINY purple pants. Oh god they hurt. Then every one decided to leave and go to another party, including Steph. Then I ended up getting a lift with Christian and Jess to the party and the cops came. So I just when home and fell asleep. Best sleep of my life.
Doing those things makes me feel more independent. I'm sick of having to rely on my mum for everything and it makes me feel bad.
Also in the past couple of days, I had my formal. Every one looked so handsome and pretty. Felt like a ghost against all the tans : The DJ was sixty and had Crocodile Dundee accent. The school spent a good $4 on that guy. I spent most of my night permanently damaging my feet and waiting in the line for photos, then when I finally got them the photographer made me do weird poses. Oh god, they're going to send them to my house!
Then the after party, I was happily getting a lift to Stephs house with Josh - Nawww his mum is lovely! When I got there got changed into stephs Eminem top : and some TINY purple pants. Oh god they hurt. Then every one decided to leave and go to another party, including Steph. Then I ended up getting a lift with Christian and Jess to the party and the cops came. So I just when home and fell asleep. Best sleep of my life.
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